Today, I get to read a short biography by one of my favorite authors (John Piper) about one of my historical heroes (William Wilberforce). Then, I get to write questions for high schoolers that will help them see more clearly the depths of the wisdom and glory of God as expressed in the life of Wilberforce (who worked with amazing perseverence to change laws in England so that slaves were first no longer imported and then no longer held at all in England). This man's life was inspirational for his fortitude, but what is even more inspiring is the God Who gave him the heart and soul to effect such great things for humanity. I get to highlight this to high schoolers around the country and even around the world and their moms, as I write that discussion outline as well. Wow. What a job!
But, know what? I haven't seen it this way every day. For many days in recent past, I have not been wondering at the fact that I get to do this, but complaining that I've got to do this. "I've got to go write Week 6," I sigh. "I've got to work late tonight." "I've got to read this or that book for my curriculum writing." Then the "I'd rather be's..." being and flow like water from my mouth. My complaints and self-focused sighs have been voiced for so many days that I can't begin to count them. It pains me to think of how often I've grumbled and complained about my job, which is a gift from Father's hand, perfectly crafted for me, and a privilege to perform by almost any standards. One little letter is all it takes to change me from "get to" to "got to." But in that little change is a world of sin. God takes a potently negative view of those who grumble about His revealed choices for their lives and vocations. Here's a sample:
Numbers 14:28-35 (ESV)
Say to them, 'As I live, declares the Lord, what you have said in my hearing I will do to you: [29] your dead bodies shall fall in this wilderness, and of all your number, listed in the census from twenty years old and upward, who have grumbled against me, [30] not one shall come into the land where I swore that I would make you dwell, except Caleb the son of Jephunneh and Joshua the son of Nun. [31] But your little ones, who you said would become a prey, I will bring in, and they shall know the land that you have rejected. [32] But as for you, your dead bodies shall fall in this wilderness. [33] And your children shall be shepherds in the wilderness forty years and shall suffer for your faithlessness, until the last of your dead bodies lies in the wilderness. [34] According to the number of the days in which you spied out the land, forty days, a year for each day, you shall bear your iniquity forty years, and you shall know my displeasure.' [35] I, the Lord, have spoken. Surely this will I do to all this wicked congregation who are gathered together against me: in this wilderness they shall come to a full end, and there they shall die."( English Standard Version)
Grumbling isn't confined to me. It's a constant temptation to us homeschooling moms because we can so easily get our eyes off the eternal nature of our jobs and onto the many tasks that can go unnoticed and unthanked. Our pay day is so far in the future that we can feel that we're wandering in the desert, and doomed to die there, instead of purposefully and joyfully heading for a Promised Land. We fall into grumbling and complaining about our jobs as homeschooling moms because we lose perspective (and because we're sinful). Do you think my job sounds meaningful? Let's think together about yours.
You get to wake up each morning and greet your Lord and Savior, Who will give you all that you need for godliness and joy in living if you but tarry with Him awhile. You get to teach one or more young children each day to become future blessings to mankind each day. You get to be the primary shaping influence in their lives. Most of us get to stay and work in our own homes, surrounded by the decor and conveniences that we have chosed, and secure from terror or danger, while our husbands go out and work to provide food, clothing, and all the things we need for us. We get to introduce our children to Jesus. We get to have a front row seat at a thousand acts of kindness and love that our dear Savior pours out on us and through us on the people we love every day. We get to minister to our tired husbands, our sick children, and our ailing parents and our troubled friends and neighbors. It is our privilege to be ambassadors for Christ to a sin-sick world each day, whether or not we even 
leave our homes.
And when we are done in this world, we will get to hear "Well done, good and faithful servant. Enter into the joy of your Master." Well, that's a great job; one we can thank God for in every season of our lives. Let's do all we can to retain perspective on the job we have and the life we've been given. There's so much to be grateful for!
But, know what? I haven't seen it this way every day. For many days in recent past, I have not been wondering at the fact that I get to do this, but complaining that I've got to do this. "I've got to go write Week 6," I sigh. "I've got to work late tonight." "I've got to read this or that book for my curriculum writing." Then the "I'd rather be's..." being and flow like water from my mouth. My complaints and self-focused sighs have been voiced for so many days that I can't begin to count them. It pains me to think of how often I've grumbled and complained about my job, which is a gift from Father's hand, perfectly crafted for me, and a privilege to perform by almost any standards. One little letter is all it takes to change me from "get to" to "got to." But in that little change is a world of sin. God takes a potently negative view of those who grumble about His revealed choices for their lives and vocations. Here's a sample:
Numbers 14:28-35 (ESV)
Say to them, 'As I live, declares the Lord, what you have said in my hearing I will do to you: [29] your dead bodies shall fall in this wilderness, and of all your number, listed in the census from twenty years old and upward, who have grumbled against me, [30] not one shall come into the land where I swore that I would make you dwell, except Caleb the son of Jephunneh and Joshua the son of Nun. [31] But your little ones, who you said would become a prey, I will bring in, and they shall know the land that you have rejected. [32] But as for you, your dead bodies shall fall in this wilderness. [33] And your children shall be shepherds in the wilderness forty years and shall suffer for your faithlessness, until the last of your dead bodies lies in the wilderness. [34] According to the number of the days in which you spied out the land, forty days, a year for each day, you shall bear your iniquity forty years, and you shall know my displeasure.' [35] I, the Lord, have spoken. Surely this will I do to all this wicked congregation who are gathered together against me: in this wilderness they shall come to a full end, and there they shall die."( English Standard Version)
Grumbling isn't confined to me. It's a constant temptation to us homeschooling moms because we can so easily get our eyes off the eternal nature of our jobs and onto the many tasks that can go unnoticed and unthanked. Our pay day is so far in the future that we can feel that we're wandering in the desert, and doomed to die there, instead of purposefully and joyfully heading for a Promised Land. We fall into grumbling and complaining about our jobs as homeschooling moms because we lose perspective (and because we're sinful). Do you think my job sounds meaningful? Let's think together about yours.
You get to wake up each morning and greet your Lord and Savior, Who will give you all that you need for godliness and joy in living if you but tarry with Him awhile. You get to teach one or more young children each day to become future blessings to mankind each day. You get to be the primary shaping influence in their lives. Most of us get to stay and work in our own homes, surrounded by the decor and conveniences that we have chosed, and secure from terror or danger, while our husbands go out and work to provide food, clothing, and all the things we need for us. We get to introduce our children to Jesus. We get to have a front row seat at a thousand acts of kindness and love that our dear Savior pours out on us and through us on the people we love every day. We get to minister to our tired husbands, our sick children, and our ailing parents and our troubled friends and neighbors. It is our privilege to be ambassadors for Christ to a sin-sick world each day, whether or not we even 
leave our homes.And when we are done in this world, we will get to hear "Well done, good and faithful servant. Enter into the joy of your Master." Well, that's a great job; one we can thank God for in every season of our lives. Let's do all we can to retain perspective on the job we have and the life we've been given. There's so much to be grateful for!
Labels: encouragement, family
Isn't it great that we never need to stop learning about God? I find, though, that I need to be purposeful about dragging my mind back and back and back again to focus on God, Himself. It's so easy to get caught up in doing things FOR God... or for my family for God, or for the church for God, etc. Pretty soon, I'm about five steps from God, Who becomes the reason--somewhere--I guess--way down deep, but not my conscious reason for living. It's not enough to busy myself with the things of this world. I need to be conscious about God more and more in the moments of my day!
Turning 50 really is turning a corner. Suddenly, I realize that I'm probably a whole lot closer to Heaven than I am to earth. I'll be spending an eternity with God, so how much time am I investing now so that I'll enjoy Him to the fullest? I don't want my life to be so taken up with tasks for God that I forget to spend time with God or contemplating and enjoying God himself.
So, my recent Bible readings have been focused on Phillippians. In chapter 1, there's a beautiful prayer by Paul that I decided to dwell upon. And, while doing so, I dug out A Call to Spiritual Reformation: Priorities from Paul and His Prayers by D. A. Carson, who investigates the Epistles to see what lessons Paul taught in his "school of prayer." I also made a new playlist, which I entitled "Joy." I combed my iTunes list (and even downloaded a few new songs) to put together songs that were rejoicing in either God or the life He has provided for us here, so that while I worked on Week 6 of Year 3 today, I might rejoice in the God Who loved me enough to give His life for me. It is He Who is waiting for me in Heaven... not that far from now. I am finding myself refreshed today as I take time to remember Jesus more through the day through these simple, but purposeful, disciplines.
Turning 50 really is turning a corner. Suddenly, I realize that I'm probably a whole lot closer to Heaven than I am to earth. I'll be spending an eternity with God, so how much time am I investing now so that I'll enjoy Him to the fullest? I don't want my life to be so taken up with tasks for God that I forget to spend time with God or contemplating and enjoying God himself.
So, my recent Bible readings have been focused on Phillippians. In chapter 1, there's a beautiful prayer by Paul that I decided to dwell upon. And, while doing so, I dug out A Call to Spiritual Reformation: Priorities from Paul and His Prayers by D. A. Carson, who investigates the Epistles to see what lessons Paul taught in his "school of prayer." I also made a new playlist, which I entitled "Joy." I combed my iTunes list (and even downloaded a few new songs) to put together songs that were rejoicing in either God or the life He has provided for us here, so that while I worked on Week 6 of Year 3 today, I might rejoice in the God Who loved me enough to give His life for me. It is He Who is waiting for me in Heaven... not that far from now. I am finding myself refreshed today as I take time to remember Jesus more through the day through these simple, but purposeful, disciplines.Labels: encouragement, recommendation
If of thy mortal good thou art bereft
And of thy slender store two loaves alone to thee are left,
Sell one, and with the dole
Buy hyacinths to feed thy soul.
--Saadi
When I lived in New England and March 1 rolled around, I was still looking at two more solid months of cold weather before all the snow was gone, and three more solid months of school with very few breaks. Scott would buy me hyacinths. Oh, the color! Oh, the smell! I placed them on my kitchen table, and whenever I sat to do one more math lesson, or stood to fold one more load of laundry, I would bend over and take a huge whiff of spring. The smell was promise. It was hope. It was love. It was all those and more... it whispered of the miracle of God's creative abilities and His never-failing grace.
Yesterday, even though I'm no longer schooling and I live now in MD, where daffodils will be up before March is spent, Scott bought me hyacinths for our date night. Oh, the color! Oh, the smell! They take me back. They remind me of all those years where God gave me grace to persevere through another school year to "finish up strong," as my dad always said. And, yes, they are giving me the renewed hope, faith, and love to soldier on with this spring's tasks and challenges.
Do you need a boost? Take Saadi's advice! I guarantee it'll help.
Labels: encouragement
Time. We all have the same amount, and there never seems to be enough. Why is that?
I'll be 50 in early April. (Scary thought... gives rise to all kinds of musings about what I've learned/accomplished in 50 years... but that's for another post...) When I was younger, I thought that I didn't have time enough because of the demands of my young family. Then I got busier, so I thought that it was the demands of homeschooling and parenting. It seemed that time was short and tasks were many. But, those days are done. Suddenly, it's not parenting that I fill my days with, and not homeschooling, either. From this vantagepoint, I am more aware of (and grateful for) the insight that my friend, Yvonne, shared recently that while we didn't have much leisure time in those intense years, the pressing needs of family and homeschooling were wonderful guardrails on the road of life. In entering this latter phase of my life (when the children are launched, and all I have to fill my days is the work of writing and helping to run a small company) I find myself far more tempted to selfishness and sin than I ever did in earlier years. Somehow, bearing children, caring for my home, and teaching my own children seemed more directly "of the Lord." To me, they were very clearly my role as a woman, wife, and mother. Writing and running a small company seem different. They seem... optional. I am much more tempted in this phase of my life, as the children are grown and there seems to be more room for choice in my life, to choose what pleases me and grumble if things don't go my way. Who would have thought that the busy, early years were God's kindness? He led me in paths of righteousness for His Name's sake by hemming me in behind and before!
Lately, in realizing the new temptations of a new season, by God's grace I've been reading some good books that are helping me put down complaining and self-centered resentments and gladly enter into active, purposeful living so that I can, in this season of my life, do the things that God is leading me to do. I've found two tools most helpful:
1. Shopping for Time: How to do it All and NOT be Overwhelmed, by Carolyn Mahaney and her daughters, Nicole, Janelle, and Kristin is a small, approachable Godsend. It neatly lays out very practical steps by which a godly woman can live purposefully.
2. I've taken up my planner again. I had gotten away from keeping any kind of planning system, and so was living day to day without making lists that would enable me to fit in the things that were important, but not urgent. In my younger years, I learned this lesson: plan your work and then work your plan, but as the urgency went out of my days, and the choices multiplied, I found that it was easier to complain about how busy I was and make excuses than to plan in the things I really wanted to do for long-term goals. These are things like staying in touch with extended family, sending birthday cards, writing notes of encouragement, and (most dreaded) regular exercise. By God's grace, and with the help of my trusty planner, I am now finding it easier to do things that I've been wishing to do for months and years! Praise be to God!
These two small steps that are making a big difference as I seek to find my feet in the new season to which my Savior has led me. I'm wondering how many of us--no matter which busy season of our lives we find ourselves in--find it easier to complain and repine than to take up the challenge of living purposefully and selflessly, to the glory of God?
I'll be 50 in early April. (Scary thought... gives rise to all kinds of musings about what I've learned/accomplished in 50 years... but that's for another post...) When I was younger, I thought that I didn't have time enough because of the demands of my young family. Then I got busier, so I thought that it was the demands of homeschooling and parenting. It seemed that time was short and tasks were many. But, those days are done. Suddenly, it's not parenting that I fill my days with, and not homeschooling, either. From this vantagepoint, I am more aware of (and grateful for) the insight that my friend, Yvonne, shared recently that while we didn't have much leisure time in those intense years, the pressing needs of family and homeschooling were wonderful guardrails on the road of life. In entering this latter phase of my life (when the children are launched, and all I have to fill my days is the work of writing and helping to run a small company) I find myself far more tempted to selfishness and sin than I ever did in earlier years. Somehow, bearing children, caring for my home, and teaching my own children seemed more directly "of the Lord." To me, they were very clearly my role as a woman, wife, and mother. Writing and running a small company seem different. They seem... optional. I am much more tempted in this phase of my life, as the children are grown and there seems to be more room for choice in my life, to choose what pleases me and grumble if things don't go my way. Who would have thought that the busy, early years were God's kindness? He led me in paths of righteousness for His Name's sake by hemming me in behind and before!
Lately, in realizing the new temptations of a new season, by God's grace I've been reading some good books that are helping me put down complaining and self-centered resentments and gladly enter into active, purposeful living so that I can, in this season of my life, do the things that God is leading me to do. I've found two tools most helpful:
1. Shopping for Time: How to do it All and NOT be Overwhelmed, by Carolyn Mahaney and her daughters, Nicole, Janelle, and Kristin is a small, approachable Godsend. It neatly lays out very practical steps by which a godly woman can live purposefully.2. I've taken up my planner again. I had gotten away from keeping any kind of planning system, and so was living day to day without making lists that would enable me to fit in the things that were important, but not urgent. In my younger years, I learned this lesson: plan your work and then work your plan, but as the urgency went out of my days, and the choices multiplied, I found that it was easier to complain about how busy I was and make excuses than to plan in the things I really wanted to do for long-term goals. These are things like staying in touch with extended family, sending birthday cards, writing notes of encouragement, and (most dreaded) regular exercise. By God's grace, and with the help of my trusty planner, I am now finding it easier to do things that I've been wishing to do for months and years! Praise be to God!
These two small steps that are making a big difference as I seek to find my feet in the new season to which my Savior has led me. I'm wondering how many of us--no matter which busy season of our lives we find ourselves in--find it easier to complain and repine than to take up the challenge of living purposefully and selflessly, to the glory of God?
Labels: encouragement, family, recommendation
